A few weeks ago, I told you all about the Intentional Parenting e-course that is run by The Happy Family Movement. I have really been looking forward to taking this course, and it just started this week.
And you know what? I did something I haven’t done since I was taking college classes 4 years ago — I went out, purchased ink and paper for the printer, and I printed EVERYTHING out and put it in a binder. My workbook and the adventure guides.
I am so excited to start using them with the kids!
Well, the adventure guides, not the workbook. That is just for me.
I will admit that I was super excited about the workbook. I have always been one of those weird people that got super excited for the first bout of homework at the beginning of the semester. Then the thrill of new pens, notebooks and textbooks wore off and I started to feel anxious about the tremendous workload. This is kind of like that, but not really.
It isn’t a tremendous workload. In fact, it is only 6 questions.
But the questions are hard.
They are hard because they are designed to get me thinking. To define our family; our values, our happy times, moments when we were proudest…. And its hard. Part of the reason why it’s hard is because I don’t know the answer. I can’t really think of many examples of when I felt most satisfied. I can’t pinpoint times when we were happiest.
And that scares me.
It stresses me out to think that I am failing as a parent.
I know, I know … I took the first step to do better, to be better. But it is still a scary thought to think that my daughter is 6 and I cannot come up the answers to these questions.
They are there. I know we have had happy times…..
When the kids played poison lava with the couch cushions for the first time.
Building forts in the living room.
Jumping on the beds.
Laughing until we had tears in our eyes.
…. But it took me a while to remember these. And truth be told, it has been a while since these things have happened.
Yet it is very eyeopening. I want to do these things more often. I want our house to be filled with laughter, smiles and tears of joy because we are having so much fun. I want my kids to grow up and say that they had an awesome childhood.
And they will.
Because I will make sure of it.
And The Happy Family Movement will help me be the parent that I want to be.