So I know that I have been hugely slacking on the blog this past week. I am sorry!! I have so many great giveaways coming for you guys, and I have been so distracted with back to school and food related issues that I haven’t done anything at all… except sit around in my pj’s and mope.
I am really having a hard time with the soy allergy thing. Now we are starting to think that I may also have some type of reflux that was triggered by the soy. I have been talking to my mom about it (she, along with a few other family members, suffer from reflux) and she thinks that it is very possible. I have to set up an appointment with a doctor, but for now, I am just trying to deal with it.
But it’s hard.
There are very few things that I can eat. Soy is in EVERYTHING.
And some of the thing that I can eat, still give me the funny, tight feeling in my throat. It is so frustrating.
I had a terrible day on Tuesday. I had planned such a great day – it was V’s last day of summer vacation. We started the morning out with a big play date at the park, then came home for lunch. I ate two crackers while making the kids lunch, and within 5 minutes, my throat was tight, my tongue and lips were swollen and I was light headed.
I piled the kids in the car so that I could run up the road to Rite Aid for some Benedryl, and on the way, I had a sever panic/anxiety attack. My hands and arms got super tingly and started shaking, and I got really light headed. My vision was blurry, and I honestly thought I was dying.
I was totally panicked.
I called Jay because I was right down the road from his work. He asked if I could make it there, and thankfully I did. I had to call my mom to talk to though because I was FREAKING out and needed to have someone know what was going on. I did have to pull over for a second for some deep, calming breaths.
Jay drove me to the local on call (I don’t have insurance, so I didn’t want to go to the hospital) and thankfully they were great. They got me right in, gave me medicine and calmed me down. I was still shaking and freaking out. They said it did look like an allergic reaction, but that the panic attack had made the symptoms seem worse.
V was terrified, and it has carried over into her first week back to school.
She has had a stomach ache everyday at school because of her nerves. She was anxious about starting back and meeting her new teacher, and she has been very worried about me. I have tried to reassure her, but she is still stressed. I am hoping that she will calm down a bit this weekend, and next week will be easier on her.
I have been a bit depressed over the whole food allergy issue. I feel like I cannot eat anything because everything makes my throat tight. It is such an uncomfortable feeling that it makes me afraid to eat anything. I have never dealt with any type of allergy, and it would be an understatement to say that I am handling it well. I am letting my stress and anxiety get the better of me, and it is really dragging me down.
I am trying to get a handle on it, and improve my outlook … but it is hard. I ate great yesterday — lots of fresh, raw fruits and veggies, brown rice, and “real food” … and by the end of the night, my throat was tight, uncomfortable and it was hard to swallow. I just feel like no matter what I eat/do its wrong when it comes to this. And while my mom assures me that I cannot all of a sudden be allergic to everything under the sun, I cannot help but to think that (hello anxiety!). I know that she is right, but the feeling is still there and it still freaks me right out.
So here is to taking it one day at a time.
Any allergy and/or reflux advice is greatly appreciated!!